Life is funny how it can flip you upside down in a heart beat. Sometimes the change is so gradual you don’t even see it until you look back. Like everyday seems the same, but upon reflection over the months – the changes are baffling and stunning.
One day you look in the mirror and the face staring back at you is stronger and wiser. Sure there may be hints of growing older, fine lines dancing around your eyes, silver hair turning up at your temples – a tired smile – but the strength is evident.
The hurt is duller – you’re no longer afraid to be alone, and you even relish in the simple pleasures of being alone. No one cares what your hair looks like, or if you shaved your legs – you can watch the movies you want, sit in the chair you love, sprawl our not having to share the blanket and if you fall asleep before saying “goodnight” – no one cares!
There is a freedom in moving on. One day you miss them less – you don’t cry yourself to sleep and you wake up loving yourself and knowing yourself better.
There is a lot to embrace – the air – the leaves – the strong taste of coffee that gets you to work in the morning.
New Beginnings. Fresh Starts. It’s a new season and a lovely one.
And for the first time in a long tome – I laugh without reservations and with sincerity in my heart. Life is a beautiful, tragic and funny thing.